Why Now

How this time of uncertainty became an opportunity for deep self-reflection and journey of self-discovery.

Like many others, I was laid off in March. I was filled with anxiety and fear. I spent the beginning of quarantine in a state of panic. What am I going to do? How do I file for unemployment? Do I look for a new job? These questions and many invaded my mind. Until one day I decided I am no longer going to mope around in my pajamas but take advantage of all the time I now have. I began to take control of what I could. I began to use this time for self-care, self-love and self-reflection. In this process of evaluating my life, my feelings and what is important to me I had to minimize distractions, let go of what no longer serves me, carefully think about my personal goals and re-connect with my spirituality. I began to be present – breathe the fresh air around me, observe the beauty of nature, dance to my favorite tunes, cook with colorful ingredients, play cards with my grandma, sit as a family for every meal, dig my head in a book, work out every morning, nourish my relationship and worship on Sundays. I was living in a chaotic world where I lost sight of what is important to me. I become so overwhelmed with everything and everyone else that I forgot to check back in with myself. As I was able to get away from the noise and busyness - my creativity, drive and sense of self were re-awakened. It has truly been a beautiful journey that led me to write this post today.

In the midst of a pandemic, I unlocked my true passions. I began to start living my best life. I know it may sound selfish, but I did what I could to lift my spirit. I have been blessed to return to the office. However, I made the conscious decision to continue to start and live my days for me. I will not fall back on old routines. I will no longer start my days in a hectic rush – waking up to respond to texts, checking social media, skipping breakfast, whipping through traffic as I put on my lipstick, etc. Instead, I will live a mindful life - always making time for positive practices. I will create the time include movement in my day. The time for me to enjoy all the flavors of my meals. The time to care for my skin. The time to challenge my brain. The time to laugh with my family. The time to be still. The time to deeply connect with my love.

Thank you quarantine for reminding me to take care of my body, mind and soul.